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writing this in between watching nip/tuck-essential viewing for a wed night when you have no friends and social life= zero (for that also read person without the drive to go out and ring people-haha!)and watching the first coupla episodes of lost and BB6.
Lost looks like it will be quality viewing, the setting is excellent for drama (bring together a group of unknowns and place secrets and lies into the equation and stand back and wait..The Americans triumph yet again and deservedly so)but also a little implausible (so many beautiful people and everyone survives..Well paint my cheeks and call me Norma Jean).
BB was also pretty tidy-the main event being Craigs (catching a hold of myself as I write this and realise how sad my life is) eviction and the dilemma posed to Eugene.My brother and I were sitting trying to figure out what the 2200 show would be about eg Davina said the money would alter in value and we couldn't figure out how BB would go about instigating this..The act of telling the house mates that the money would double if Eugene would refuse the offer whilst keeping him unawares about it was excellent.Very Shakepearean! They do excel themselves every year.
Besides that not much else to report-have been reading a book about economics"Small is still better"-why economics is wrong in its outlook on business-business is measured in terms of values which have no relationship to the quality of product sold or the impact on human values such as quality of life and why small businesses are better for humanity and its impact on our environment and it is a fascinating read with concise, well argued points which agree with my viewpoint eg social democratic values.
I went for a run and managed to decrease my time to below that of before 33 mins something as opposed to 34 mins..I remember as I ran that there were no suits about and a lack of cars parked up at places...I forget that its August and anybody who has a life is either on holiday..or on holiday! Sorry Im bored and bitter because I have nothing to do whilst everybody else seems to.Also got a rejection today from the NHS which brings the list of people who rejected me to about 10 and include companies such as H and M, Pret A Manger, Oxfam (Oxfam!), DFS, numerous cleaning crews, telemarketing place, Subway..Joy!
Im in a darker place today than yesterday...I just feel my life is empty and wasting away (I can't really do the putting my feet up thing particularly well) and the friends I have tried to keep in contact with are blanking me..emailed my ex-she acknowledged the fact that she recieved it but not enough to write me back..and other friends...
Hmmm-anyway off to watch nip/tuck
Peace and love

hey hey
long time no speak cause my life actually did things over the weekend-shock! I went to fruitstock festival up town on saturday to see gilles peterson-one of my heroes-do a dj set. I went up with ralph-who is a very good mate-WHEN he turns up on time-is the emphasis right there-no? Oh well... Basically he left me hanging at ealing tube for close to an hour....and then at regents park tube....actually he did text me the night before saying he was going to be very late but i didn't get that due to the ineptitude of my phone-so maybe that deserves blame as well...
anyway went down, had a good time, went around all the little stalls and wished I had brought along food/more friends/ little green if you get me....everyone else had some so why not me?!
Ralph told us that there was gonna be a flirting area on site so I was looking fwd to that especially as tracey cox (ladeee from "would like to meet")was there-and also the fact that its been ages since..well you know :0)
We headed over to there then and then on to the info stand where we picked up a programme (seriously-a word in your ears to those nice peeps at innocent- why were programmes £1?I am a student and it costs bare dollar to get up to regents park-some of us don't have the pleasure to live on bakers street/maida vale/somewhere nice in nw london like other trendy 20 something types). So we bought one and then went to the bar and bought a small, expensive water bottle to share-word to myself..next time-PREPARE!!-and then we sat down.
It was pleasant being surrounded by beautiful peeps everywhere and in a green field in the middle of london and the warmth of the weather and being with a close mate and having Gilles P play tuneage to us; Soil n pimp, herbert,4 hero-oh mightyness!!!
It was kinda weird however still-ralph was hungover and the conv was not really moving but being prodded along haphazardly..
After GPs set we decided to head down to rough trade in covent garden as well as sort out some food business..so we went to sainsburys and then on to warren street tube-deserted-and down to the garden. We fooled around down there checking out records and then had a coffee at the caff under neal street mall or whatever that place is called..the mocha wasn't all that so sort it out!Whilst down there got to check out the cricket score-it was pretty mighty (oz in the 170s-a bit of a shocker especially considering the mornings play) and well done to england n good luck 4 old trafford!
We headed back up cause we wanted to watch Nitin Sawnhey and he didn't disappoint although it did take a bit of time for him to warm into the set but after that it was quite heavy...definitely some downloadage do be done there....It was perfect for the sun coming down and couples holding each other around us an much ganja in the air..made me quite maudlin and thinkin abt my ex...Hmm best not to go there anyway.
Was thinkin during the set; london=best place to live on earth despite stupid prices et al evrything else- so much mixture of ages and races-fantastic!!
Then got bk on the tube and bk to paddington and then bk to home all within 30 mins..thus a great day!!!
I wanna tell you lot more abt the w/e but am sure you've got enough to digest with this so as ever, God speed, love and peace

J

My brother is a tit. Fact. My brother got it into his idea since going away to uni that when with our parents,his entire purpose for existence is to make mine a laughing stock and behave in the manner of a four year old eg double standards for himself and myself-so I took a cd and forgot to bring it back asap-whats the fuss? Meanwhile I wonder where my jacket disappeared to...oh yeah my brother has it.....
The subject makes my blood boil but Im gonna forget it at least until tomorrow morning when he "casually" mentions it to my parents and they start patronising me..ooh goody! Same brother im gonna go up town with tomorrow so dunno..ambiguous relationships eh?! The blog hots up-well at least if I do say so myself!
I had a good day today-I helped my old man out (cutting tiles and clearing up the front yard at one of the places he's a landlord), my mate failed his Patho-this is a strange conundrum-the guy is brilliant at whatever he does in dentistry but since he met his new lady he's failed 3 exams on the trot..Im not implying a correlation betw the 2 but hey conspiracy theorists unite! Anyway God speed a quick return to form cause he's great and he's always there for us. Besides that met up with a mate from uni who's also a great laugh in the sense that he never goes along with the crowd and says things which are true and everyone thinks em but totally unpalatable to all simultaneously....We talked about the future, sex and leaving Britain. All worthwhile subjects in the directionless present.
I still need a job-think Britain is so American in that way; eg random employers wanting the most for the least...seriously check out jobcentreplus.gov.uk-somebody will be paying the min wage in order to get someone who can comply with COSHHHH standard 4 has a GNVQ in curry making and a 10 metre swimming badge...seriously who are these people you wonder-2 at most(maybe not even?!)- as you read it...Hilarious and depressing at the same time...
Anyway bedtime awaits now, cheers to peeps who left notes et al..much love
Peace with all

PPS Quantic-mishaps happening= tuneage!!!!dancefloor greatness and way to unwind from anger!!!!!!!!!MUCH respec with man like Will Holland

Hello, world
Really bored at the moment so decided to set this up and write it. Who am I? A twentysomething, single, very bored, penniless medical student.
Where am I? In we're not afraid .com london-although everybody I know a) thinks its the governments fault and the bombers missed their true targets b) knows that London would be a target due too Iraq etc and carries on and c)is getting sick and tired of hearing about the Blitz spirit-a few sporadic limp wristed bombs do not a spirit maketh.
Anyway I digress. Talking politics is stupid-at least here.
Todays been a bit of a washed up day-just moping and eating at my parents house. I have no job thus no money thus no good times thus bored and miserable. am looking forward to going back to uni-both getting away from parents-nagging to clean up the back garden or do something more useful then arse around on laptop/ tv/videos. The self hatred also comes about from the fact that I have an Anglo saxon work ethic- eg work hard and play hard and am doing neither at this moment in time. Another reason is that im in London and look around!Everyone has fancy gear-cars to mp3 players and all I need to be happy is an mp3 player and a decent digital camera, if the sugar daddy is out there (a toshiba and a sony cam ) would be just dandy.
I want to talk about my relationships but have to rush off in a bit so i 'll save that juicy gossip for later
Im listening extensively to music as well, especially Quantic and Moodymann-soul jazz and deep house respectively and really loving the music on those too fronts-I'll expand on that in a bit as well tomorrow/later.
Peace be wit you